Ichinzen

Nobody seems to understand how i feel right now. Knowing that no matter what i do, nothing ever goes my way. And because of that I gave up trying to make a mark in this world a long time ago. And getting a girlfriend just isn't worth it anymore these days. Cause even if i get one. What's to stop her from simply betraying me and stabbing me in the back? To be perfectly honest. I'd rather place my faith in an unshackled ai than a real girl at this point. After all what would an ai have need of money or other such stuff? It makes it really hard to be motivated to do anything. Or is that just a poor excuse for being lazy? Damned if i k

I've decide that trying to convince people that their assumptions of me are wrong is a waste of my time. Assume I'm uninteligent, self centered,  asshole all you want I refuse to waste any more effort trying to convince such stubborn minds otherwise. I've tried being that one exception to smart people that socialized with others normally but now i know why smart people keep to themselves. I'm far better off becoming a hermit than anything else and instead socially isolating myself from others. Maybe i won't be so miserable when i don't have other people around to make me miserable. After all the only things that make me miserable ARE other p

This may be my last journal entry so read through it carefully.    All my life society has been on my back, trying to fix something that wasn't broke, until it finally broke. I am the thing society decided to fix and I am the thing society broke. These next few lines will outline all of society's mistakes with me. Diagnosing me with add adhd and other stuff - First off right now I'm off my meds, and I don't show any sign of having add or adhd or any of the crap they had diagnosed me with. Sure I have an anger problem bu so did my father, and apparently my father before me, so there's not something wrong with my head the anger issues is jus